update boyfriend and me

So my boyfriend came with me to therapy and it went well. We even came to the idea that we could live someplace that is equal distance between both of our families. I even spoke to him about me living on my own for a bit so I could gain some sense of independence away from my parents and he seemed ok with it.

however after he got home he started to backpedal saying what if there are no places in between and he dosent think I can live on my own because of my anxiety and that I might financially drain myself. I’m really disappointed and I don’t know what to do. I know he is worried about me and he is probably just as scared as I am about moving. I just wish I could make him understand because I know he loves me and I do love him, but then I start to have doubts. I don’t know why I’m having them now after 10 years. I feel so confused. I want to be able to make my own choices but I feel like I’m the bad guy