My grandma has always been there for me. and for everyone. there is not a day when she has thought about herself before others. Relentless. Sacrificing. Affectionate.
But she doesnt know how to show her affection so she often shows it by shouting at others but as a grandchild I know that she is doing that for my own good.
Recently she has just lost her husband, my grandfather. I miss him a lot but all my remorse goes into making sure that she is comfortable because that is what he would have wanted. She used to shout at him a lot as well but she has taken care of him amazing for more than 40 years and he knew how amazing she was.
Her daughter, my mother doesnt realise how great she is. She blames her for everything that went wrong in her life. She has anger because my grandma wasn't as patient with her as she is with me. she suffers from schizophernia.
We currently live in the Uk and pay visits to her once in a year. I would love to leave the UK and be with my grandma and take care of her but education is terrible in my country and my grandma refuses to come because of my dad.
In the past my mother has been cruel towards her. Hit her. made her cry. screamed at her.
But today she made her apologise so many times. She blamed her for my grandpa's death. And my grandma silently took it all in...she stopped me from talking to my mum.
She is old, weak and fragile and I don't want anyone to hurt her. I love her more than anyone in the world, even more than my parents.Yet to this date I have never told her how much i love her as she doesnt like other people showing her love
I want to sheild her from the world and my mother and at the same time live my life. and I really don't know how to
