I want to share my state of powerlessness...despondency, and confusion, which has been weighing on me. I don't know what to do at all, and from the fatigue of the situation I am lethargic, I feel like I am in a fog.
I don't work much, but I am very tired of the family situation...I have three children living with me, my mom, my husband. My husband and I have known each other since childhood, he is a wonderful man. I think he's kind, but he has another half: the dark half. Sometimes he starts talking nonsense. He starts telling me that he's seen me in certain situations, but I know for a fact that I wasn't in those situations.
For example, he tells me how I betrayed him and was there for his friend, him and something else I stole. I argue to the point of hoarseness that I was somewhere else that day, but it doesn't help. If I don't talk to him, he follows me around and interrogates me. He wants confessions and revelations. But this is not one such story, there are many. Which were, but probably only in his imagination. This situation is making me sick. And my inner state affects my outer life. It's important for me to be in charge of my own life. It was like he smoked cannabis and I appeared to him in hallucinations. Then he'll blame me for what I did in his hallucination. Because he often doesn't separate his hallucinations and real life. When he argues with me, he gets aggressive. How can I prove the truth to him? I've argued a lot, but it doesn't work. Our fighting is bad for the kids, and my mother. They are dumbfounded by the text of the accusations against me.
