I want a lot of things all the time. And because of that, I think I have a lot of problems. For example, I want to change my job to a better one. That's a problem. I have to write a lot of resumes, go to interviews and do a lot of "tasks". And clever managers slip you those tasks that they told you to do in a week or a month.
For example, one company sent me their statistics for 15 years for me to summarize them using Excel. It's not difficult, but it's clear that I'm doing someone else's work for someone else, and for free, with no guarantee of employment.
Another company required me to write letters to China in Chinese. It is doable, but again it adds problems in addition to the main job.
In general, my desires, give birth to a huge amount of busyness and problems. It's been really torturing me, making me depressed. Give up my career plans? And work in peace, sleep, rest.
I decided that without finding a resource, I couldn't go any further. New plans are problems. That stuck in my mind.
The feeling of trouble was associated with a stone around my neck.
When I feel bad, I go to my mother's grave. There I calm down, and I feel good. When I was silent, sitting near my mother's portrait, a memory from my childhood came to my mind: "If you don't know how to do something, you will learn, new skills - new plans. A flash in my head reformatted the phrase "new plans - new me, self-development". It turns out, new problems, not problems, but plans. I was relieved.
