I’m getting paranoid about my health anxiety. It’s controlling me. It all started with stomach problems, and they are real. I have chronic gastroduodenitis, GAD, also had candida and Helicobacter Pylori. We treated the latter two, but my gut still doesn’t work properly. I also feel constantly tired and sort of indifferent to everything. I’ve changed 5 or 6 doctors, had many various tests and checkups. I have a feeling that doctors don’t take me seriously. I was advised to visit a neurologist about my anxiety, and so I ended up with a psychiatrist and sedative prescriptions. I now take so many pills daily that my feeling of being unhealthy has only deepened. My therapist (and now my doctor too) keep telling me that I have hypochondria and depression… Maybe I do, I don’t deny it. But I keep asking, “what if you’re wrong”? My doctors are telling me that the deviations from the norm in my tests are not that serious, and that they have nothing to do with my anxiety. I want to know why my tests are that way in the first place?
I await my appointments with doctors, each time hoping that we’ll finally find the root cause of me feeling unwell… It’s consuming my life, my happiness and my plans for the future. I can’t even say the sedative is helping, it only makes me sleepy in the morning! All I dream of is to be me from 10 years ago – carefree and absolutely healthy.
Have you ever thought that the symptoms of your mental health have physical root causes?
