not sure if i see a future with my boyfriend of 11 years

I have been with my boyfriend for 11 years but now I don’t even know if I see a future with him. We both want different things from Life. He wants to move down south but I have absolutely no intention of doing so. We both have different political views, and I thought I could handle it before but now not so much. He thinks we need to move in together. Long ago I would have said yes but now I’m not sure. I feel absolutely sick whenever I think about it or it comes up I feel like I’m dying. I still love and care about him, but I don’t wanna hurt anyone or feel like a monster. All my life I’ve never had a chance to live on my own. I’ve never gotten to experience it. He doesn’t think I can do it at all because of my job situation which might be true, but I can still live on my own. I’ve also managed to build a life for myself in my hometown with some new friends and new places to go to. I don’t want that taken away from me. I feel like a monster, a selfish monster. I want the freedom to live the life I want to live, but I feel like I’m in the wrong for it. Am I so bad?