I faced sexual assault at an early age, and I can’t lead a normal adult life because of it. I was diagnosed with depression and later with PTSD. I had talk therapy sessions for 14 weeks, doctors said it would last for months, but it turned to be years… I take antidepressants, they help with nightmares, but I can’t forget what I went through and it affects my relations with men. I can’t trust a man, even when I see he is OK. We may become friends but I avoid physical and emotional intimacy at all costs.
How can you be happy when happiness was erased from you years ago? I try to find new hobbies and meanings in life, but on some days it’s just hard to live.
