For the last 10 years, I've felt disabled.

For the last 10 years, I've felt disabled. I have undergone spinal surgery and my disease is progressing. My life is divided into "before" and "after". "Before" was a very mobile life, I worked a lot, drove and was in business from morning to night. You bet!!! I was working 3 jobs, doing TV appearances, plus taking care of my elderly parents, and my baby. It all came to a head when my father's legs got worse and he "got sick". My mother got sick, and I worked for all the employees at work who also got sick. I started to feel dizzy and my leg started to fall off. I drove until the last minute because there was no one to bring food to the family. I drove through pain and cramps. Then a friend brought me to the hospital in his arms, because my legs had fallen off. I had 48 hours to save my legs, and they operated on my spine. Life had taught me a lesson. My friends brought me home from the hospital, because my boyfriend left me at once. I'm disabled. I was lying in a house where my father and mother and my child were sick. It took me a long time to learn to walk, and then I started to drive a car and got a job. And I'm too mobile again. I blame myself for my old way of life, because of which I endure severe pain and cramps in the evening. But I couldn't do it any other way. What do I do? I had to change somehow, because my illness is the result of overwork and not feeling sorry for myself. Now my parents are dead and the child is grown up. But my mobility is the same. And someday I'm gonna pay for it with my back.