For only two days, I was feeling normal when attending classes but today , something has happened that I lose all my calm , I have low attendance in my college and we have to maintain like 75% and it is not even 60 yet and the college is about to end in 15 days , the student's parents were called today , and of course my class teacher complained alot to my mother in secretly like she doesn't talk to anyone except that that one guy friend of her,she doesn't participate in any of the activity , doesn't take off her mask, also told mom to tell me to participate in activities .

I was already planning to avoid my presentations but my class teacher told my mom all of these, she is telling me to do what i just cant , may be previous me was better than today's .Just now I can from a shop and I was not able to talk in front of two people, how can I do in front of so many people.

I know everybody will tell that u have to try but u know I can't , I can't do it.

I haven't achieve anything in my life due to my social anxiety, always feel like a burden to my parents.

Exams are starting from next month. I am Not able to focus on my studies, can't understood a simple thing, my that guy friend just getting irritate of me bcoz I am so dumb ,misunderstood anything.My classmates look at me like I am from another planet. I know I am just like a mystery to them.

Who will give job to a stupid girl like me if most of them are far better than me.

My parents argued each other every one or two weeks bcoz my father is not making a better home for us.

She cries bcoz of this , my father has other stress , our whole family has a lot of stress

Yesterday morning I received an email from one of the nonprofit organisations I both receive support from and occasionally collaborate with on an advocate basis, inviting me to not only attend a protest for Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM, April) but to be one of two speakers telling their truth to encourage others. As a survivor who’s lived in their truth from the moment they came forth, I gladly accepted it. I’m excited, but I’m also nervous.

I’m excited because this opportunity allows me to encourage others in speaking THEIR truth, nervous because my assailant is a vindictive covert narcissist who’s already tried to kill me and I don’t want any unnecessary targets on my back. I’m anxious, but not anxious enough to bite my tongue. For the first time in two almost three years I’ll be speaking my truth once more, just in front of a crowd and possibly televised setting.

I meant what I said when I said I won’t be threatened into silence.

My perpetrator attempted to destroy my essence and being through the trauma he caused me but has no idea he ACTUALLY created a more determined, compassionate and loving spirit. My heart’s made fullmetal and I’ve got the resilience of a raging fire trying to be extinguished to no avail. And I’m going to continue burning bright, setting others’ hearts ablaze in my pursuit to give voice to those who feel silenced by their own assailants and trauma.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with anxiety, and sometimes it even leads to panic attacks.

I try not to think about it, but it’s getting to me. I get overwhelmed easily. Initially, this anxiety was limited to exams, but now it’s not.

I try to practice self-love, but sometimes things hold me back. I find myself seeking validation or approval from others. I know it’s not good for me, but I can’t seem to stop.

My school counselor said she would help me, but I’m reluctant to go to her. I’m afraid that if I open up about everything, it might trigger a panic attack. What if I can’t speak without crying? What if she calls my parents?

I’m scared to face her. I don’t know how to confront her in person

I have been with my boyfriend for 11 years but now I don’t even know if I see a future with him. We both want different things from Life. He wants to move down south but I have absolutely no intention of doing so. We both have different political views, and I thought I could handle it before but now not so much. He thinks we need to move in together. Long ago I would have said yes but now I’m not sure. I feel absolutely sick whenever I think about it or it comes up I feel like I’m dying. I still love and care about him, but I don’t wanna hurt anyone or feel like a monster. All my life I’ve never had a chance to live on my own. I’ve never gotten to experience it. He doesn’t think I can do it at all because of my job situation which might be true, but I can still live on my own. I’ve also managed to build a life for myself in my hometown with some new friends and new places to go to. I don’t want that taken away from me. I feel like a monster, a selfish monster. I want the freedom to live the life I want to live, but I feel like I’m in the wrong for it. Am I so bad?

Lately I feel like God or the universe hates me. I’m trying to follow my career and personal goals but nothing seems to work. I’m trying to build my career as a copy/content writer and while have gotten some jobs, I can’t seem to find anything else. I recently had a job interview at a library. I would love to work in a library. I love books and it’s so nice and quiet but no matter how many jobs I apply for and how many interviews I go on, I can’t seem to snag a job there. I really want to become a writer and write my own books, but I don’t think I’m good enough. I just want to have a happy life doing something that makes me happy and fulfilled but I guess that’s wrong. I feel like the only thing I am ever going to be good for is just lying on my back. How can I change things? Am I allowed to be happy?

i’m seventeen years old and do not have any genuine friendships or family. it is incredibly lonely and isolating. i am doing all i can do at the moment, i have an in-person therapist, i talk to her once a week, i am now a part of a coping strategies group at my high school, i will be more involved with my schools theater community again for our spring musical ‘chicago’ which i will be returning as one of the running crew. i go to work, i have worked a lot lately. but i crave friends, i crave friendship and family. i am so very lonely. i have cried to counselors, i have reached out to endless helplines, i have tried to get out there. i am horribly limited, i am stuck in a damaging household with “family” members who worsen my mental health and who i do not consider my family at all. to me my house is a jail. i have tried everything to make it not be a jail but i hate my family. i have thought about running away, and recently i have thought endlessly about ending it all. please reach out if you live in the RVA area and you’re a teenager. if so that would mean the whole entire world, or if you live in like chesterfield, fredericksburg etc… or please reach out if you’re seventeen as well. i just want to feel connected, i want somebody whos like me to connect to.

hello there,

i wanted to know if y'all ever faced this feeling:

you invested so much energy in a passion that helped you, but it actually also had bring you a lot of issues that impacted your health. would you still keep it because of the many years you poured in it and have hopes, or give up because of disappointements and protect your mental?

to explain my case, this passion revealed a creative side from me in art, writing, costumes, confidence in my appearance etc. and thanks to that i gained opportunities and "kind of fame" at some moment.

but the thing is, it's also because i entered this community i met people that abused me, sabotaged me, and i'm now diagnosed with depression, take antidepressants and i won't tell more but you can guess what is it when you don't wanna fight anymore for your life.

i only poured all my love into that, it's not just an interest, all my life revolved around it. i feel it's too late to start over with something else, i feel i lost years if i abandon it, but i don't know what to gain more from it now that people destroyed my status. on one hand i would never have meet such an enjoyable interest that gave me popularity but also i knew i would have never meet these people.

maybe the best is to enjoy it but far from the fandom side but i still have this fomo thingy.

I had got betrayals from friends.. I am pure hearted that's why they didn't liked me cause I'm straight forward and tell things which I feel in their face .. I don't have any regret of saying anything to anyone cause I know my intention was pure... 🙂 I need real genuine friendship who will understand me..

Last month I had a dream that I can’t seem to forget. In the dream I was walking into town, my town that is, While I was walking two dogs, I then came across a group of people who looked like the cast of a musical that I saw on Broadway. The group welcomed me warmly, and one of the guys there was really sweet to me. He gave me a hug and a little kiss, but the kiss did not feel weird. It felt nice. It’s funny because the guy that kissed me looked like the actor. I have a crush on and one of the people with him was the actress he is currently engaged to, but it wasn’t those cast members at all. They just looked like them anyway we all hung out together and talked and had a great time. I can’t stop thinking about it. I wonder if it means something. I had this theory that it’s a preview of how good my life could be. But I don’t know what to make of it. I want to believe that it means something good is coming, but I just don’t know. What do you think?

Hi Guys,

What do you do if you have obsessive thoughts that wont leave you .Also if you are feeling extreme sadness that might turn into depression.